I need something to distract me from going loony studying for my exam tonight. HAVE A MEME F-LIST!

Ask any of the characters I roleplay a question and I'll reply in-character as them with an answer. Feel free to ask them ANYTHING, regardless of whether you know their canon or not. Feel free to also ask them as your own character. They will respond accordingly.

Current Cast:

★ Betty Ross // SheHulk - Marvel Ultimates @ capeandcowl

★ Joseph Wilson // Jericho - DC Teen Titans @ dc_nation

★ M'gann M'orzz // Miss Martian - DC Teen Titans @ dc_nation

★ Natasha (Toni) Stark // Iron Woman - Marvel AU @ earth_3490

★ Michael Jonathan Watson - Marvel AU @ earth_3490

★ Emily Banner // Hulkling - Marvel AU @ earth_3490 (Avengers Mach 2)

★ Callum Barton // Arsenal - Marvel AU @ earth_3490(Avengers Mach 2)

★ Brenda Del Vecchio - DC Blue Beetle @ trans_9

★ Rose Wilson // Ravager - DC Teen Titans @ trans_9

★ Dr. McNinja - The Adventures of Dr. McNinja A trans_9

And anyone else I've been known to play is fair game too! <3

Recently I signed up for a new project - a community on Dreamwidth called Musing Way. (Consider this my pimping for it.) The idea of MW is to sign up with a character that's in your head a lot who you like to work with and you answer prompts about them or even AS them. There are also open roleplay posts and the like.

Now... ages and ages ago... I posted the 'Her Boy Friday' Iron Man fics, with Tony Stark as a lady and Toni snowballed into her own little animal hella-fast. She sort of... moved out of my Her Boy Friday AU into this huge sprawling thing based on a single comic page, earth_3490 that quipquipquip and I have been playing out together. (If you poke your head over don't mind the erratic threads and shit, that's just how we roll. We need a proper and complete reading order post like woah, still.)

So ANYWAY when Musing Way cropped up, I took my invite code, strolled on over and set up shop with Toni - writing her early early EAAARLY in the Earth 3490 timeline (oh god yes there's a timeline). It's mid 2005, she's part of the Avengers, the public knows her as Iron Man, she drinks like a fish and her life is both awesome and kind of terrible all at once.

Musing way's prompt for Week 7 was 'Freedom'.

Toni!Muse shook me down and got me to write this at 5:30 in the morning after I'd been quite upset about stuff earlier in the evening and... I am kind of surprised how well it came out, so I wanted to share. =)


Title: The Black
Author: glassfishgirl
Fandom: Marvel Comics AU
Character(s)or Pairing: Toni Stark
Rating: PG-13 maybe for language?
Wordcount: 503
Notes: n/a
Warnings: This got... surprisingly depressing for being writing about 'freedom'..
Summary: There are times that just breathing the air down on the ground feels so smothering...

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'Take me where I cannot stand...'


It's part of a song, something Pepper was always watching on the TV a few years back. She's a Joss Whedon fangirl, just a little bit, but Toni's never shared the obsession. Whedon depresses the fuck out of her.

The shit he writes is just too much like her real life - funny, fantastic, crushing and bitterly cruel at the most random moments, and totally and unequivocally entertaining to everyone but the people who have to live it.

But Firefly was a bit of a different stroke she supposes, and she did like the theme song.


( Take me out, to the black... )

This November she would have been 14 years old. Almost fourteen years of my life with her constant presence there...

I walked into the house after being away at class today, arriving home again in the usual way for the first time since her last breath, and I turned to say hello to the spot where she was always lying before I could remember that she wouldn't be there.

I said 'Hi Meggy sweetheart' to an empty room anyway, because it didn't feel right not to finish the thought.

The vet we found didn't make her take us out to an unfamiliar office and a cold metal table. They came to our house and sat with her in the living room. In her own home, comfortable on her own bed, mom with her head on her lap, me stroking her back as she stopped breathing. One discomfort, just one little yelp when they stuck the catheter needle into her front leg, but then the sedation went in smoothly and she laid still and relaxed as they flushed the catheter and got the last injection set up. Mom pet her face and said 'good bye baby' as they gave her the last of it. She was gone in seconds, one little muscle twitch, and then just... still.

We buried her on the property of a friend of my father's from work. Mom and I came with Dad when he drove out to put her there. I can't erase the image of her body lying in the truck bed from my mind. Still and quiet, like she was sleeping, lying on her side on her blanket like always, wind from the drive ruffling up her soft fur.

I skipped class. I couldn't have focused for the life of me.

When we got home dad asked if I would run out to Giant Tiger and grab a few things we needed for dinner. Milk, spaghetti sauce. I said sure, went out and got in the car, and then bawled for half the drive.

Not seeing the carpet in the living room by her bed caked with dog-hair again three whole days after a vacuuming hurts worse than everything else. I miss her soft head and the goofy smiling look on her face when you caught her attention. I miss watching her charge around the back yard trying to attack the sprinkler and the way she destroyed every toy you could give her except for her Kong which got dragged everywhere and dropped into the pool at the Conger St. house caked with dirt and pieces of grass inside.

Barely moving and miserable, it would have been wrong to make her suffer worse or longer, but I still wish I could go upstairs, lie down against her as she sleeps on her bed and kiss her head again. My sweet baby, I'm so sorry... it was better, but nothing feels worse.

Dual exercise here!

First of all, I am DONE my cultural studies essays!!!! WHOOHOOOOO! =D This means I'm officially off hiatus on all my games, can app for new ones, and god dammit when I get home from my chill-out night with Crystal this evening I am going to TAG THE ENTIRE FREAKING INTERNET!!!!! XD

Psych I owe you tags and a thread, Sair I owe you a thread, Allen I gotta talk you into a thread and I owe you Scoutsmen crack, Kitty I owe you a C&C App and FFFFT THIS WEEKEND IS GOING TO BE AMAZING, WE'RE GOING TO FREAK YOUR BRUCE OUT SO BAD! WOOHOO! XD

NOW THEN!

Since essays are out of the way I am going to be ALL OVER all the plotbunnies that have been clamouring unsuccessfully for freedom from my brain while I've been bogged down with schoolwork. Getting random snippets and bits and ideas out of my head and also Kitty deserves some drabbles! As Kitty maaaaay be the only person to get what a lot of these ideas are about this is clearly the perfect marriage of intents! Tadaa!

FIRST UP!

( Half-Finished Belated Fathers Day Drabble - Earth 3490 AU )

Well, I do have celebratory happy things to post but those will come later tonight.
Right now I just realized something that makes me sad all over again that I just need to write down before I go off to get my classes done with.


pococurante would have been 22 today.


July 18th last year she died just a couple weeks past turning 21 after fighting on and off with bone cancer in her jaw for a long while.

I still miss her, still wish I'd called her one more time before she passed away. The part of me that knows she's not suffering anymore and is glad for that also just wishes she'd never suffered at all. She was a good kid - and I shouldn't call her a kid but I guess I say that because she felt so... little-sister like to me.

I miss her photoposts, I miss her flailing about Naruto, I miss talking to her on the phone.

Just... miss her. =(

Wherever you are Kali I hope it's fucking amazing. You deserve that much. ♥

I stole this from Kitty. She made it sound like a good idea you see...


The How's My Driving? Meme

I could seriously stand some feedback on everybody I play I think. Uuuh, have at?

I haven't actually fic-style written out something this adult in a very long time. Uuuuh, yeah. This is NC-17 and really NSFW. You've been WARNED f-list! Please just skip this over if it doesn't interest you.

Title: Savage
Author: glassfishgirl
Fandom: Marvel Comics AU
Character(s)or Pairing: Genderswapped!Tony Stark/Bruce Banner
Rating: NC-17
Notes: Set in a universe where Tony is Toni and always has been, inspired by a prompt for 'anyone/bruce' on the most recent Cape and Cowl kink meme.
Warnings: Female dominant/male submissive, bondage, some rough domination and one instance of choking are part and parcel here so don't say I didn't tell you what you were getting into.
Summary: "You get to play master and servant with a nymphomaniac multi-billionaire for a month straight and call it ‘anger management’? Where the f**k were you when the court made me to go to that 'deep-breathing-count-to-ten' shit for my road rage?"


“You said you wanted me to help you, Dr. Banner. Don’t bitch about how I do it.”
Her voice is just a little graveled, worn rough from swallowing scotch and barking instructions at everyone within twenty feet of her all day. It’s what she does... and it’s what she’s doing to him (for free she might add, and with such nice perks).

It doesn’t hurt that she’s aged beautifully, although even if she were as hard on the eyes as her high stress, vodka soaked lifestyle would suggest he still would have asked her to do this and no one else.

Youth isn’t what he needs.

( He came to Toni Stark because she’s Toni Stark... )

I'm off to Crystal's place to rock out overnight. Will check my tags if I can RP friends but my blackberry's being a little spotty about my e-mail notifications since this morning so sorry if I miss ya!

But in the meanwhile let's put my finger on the pulse of my flist and start the weekend off nice all!

Tell me about one good thing going on for you today! Pick a bit of joy and share it! =D

Just when I think I'm over it, my slash goggles (from back in the Harry Potter days) break out of storage and molest my eyes when I least expect them to.

This is why the fuck I should not be allowed to talk to people on the internet. Oh my god. Honestly. (Important phrases in this conversation have been bolded for emphasis.)


quipquipquip I'm writing letters and about to go see how my flamingo is being recieved
glassfishgirl oooh! is he on display someplace?
quipquipquip yep! At a restaurant
glassfishgirl Cool!
glassfishgirl I am sure people shall love him
glassfishgirl He is alfred after all and quite awesome
glassfishgirl dareisay fabulous
quipquipquip HAHA yes, yes he is
glassfishgirl (can't have hooker eyelashes and not be fabulous)
quipquipquip he is So Gay
glassfishgirl lol, so terribly so, yes
glassfishgirl but it's wonderful to be gay when you're a green flamingo see
quipquipquip yes XD
glassfishgirl He needs a saucy flamingo lover.
quipquipquip oh god he does
glassfishgirl Possibly orange
glassfishgirl with SPARKLES
glassfishgirl named Almanzo
glassfishgirl (Alfred calls him 'Manley')
glassfishgirl *little house refernce rimshot*
quipquipquip Are you going to write slash fic about my flamingos?
glassfishgirl ........
glassfishgirl MAYBE
glassfishgirl >_>
quipquipquip /DIES
glassfishgirl they need to by a little lawn to live on with a white picket fence and grow old together kitty
quipquipquip they'll adopt lawn gnomes
glassfishgirl and have a constant problem with the neighbours dog
glassfishgirl (it's always peeing on Manley. not very nice.)
glassfishgirl how many lawn gnomes?
glassfishgirl 2.5?
quipquipquip definitely
glassfishgirl their neighbours without the dog have, like, TEN gnomes
glassfishgirl and they let them all run wild
glassfishgirl irresponsible flamingoes those are
glassfishgirl (some skunks live across the street, ooooh racial tension!)
quipquipquip SLkdfjdkfldsfjlf
quipquipquip I'm dying
glassfishgirl excellent
glassfishgirl *prepares pheonix down*
glassfishgirl *ahead of time you see, boyscouty like*
glassfishgirl one day alfred got climbed by a cat
glassfishgirl he lost some of his noodlehawk an was afterward terribly self-conscious about his deformity, but manley still loves him forever
quipquipquip sdkj AHAH]

....

Yeah.

This while I stare at Microsoft Word and try to will my 400 word paper to write itself.

Don't mind me, just... making a list of the shit I want/NEED to get done today and putting down a few random notes/thoughts about stuff for my own head.

MUST Do -

♥ - Get all of my dishes done, put in the dishwasher.
♥ - Finish doing my laundry (fold remaining dryer load, put stuff away)
♥ - Sort through baskets of old clothes, garbage back donations and store winter stuff.
♥ - Clear off my desk and dresser of all the bits of paper and shit I do or don't need.
♥ - Dust off the cleared spaces thoroughly.
♥ - Read the Keywords article for class.
♥ - Write at least the rough for my 400 word paper.
♥ - Read at least part of Barthes stuff on studium and punctum in photography.
♥ - Tag one of threads that are waiting on me to tag. Still two threads to go.

Must Also Do But Are Not Dire -

♥ - Hang my glass fish somewhere. (I am debating naming him Hubert. Do you think he looks like a Hubert f-list?)
♥ - Vacuum my room and vacuum out the inside of my computer tower while I'm at it.
♥ - Clean my bathroom (ugh my vanity sort of needs it)
♥ - Febreeze my bed
♥ - Finish the Brainy/Brenda drabble prompt set I was working on yesterday.
♥ - Finish transferring all things over to my new e-mail address.
♥ - Read more of Legion of Superheroes.
♥ - Read Invincible so that I can squee with Kitty about it.
♥ - Put together Kitty's care package! =D

Random Notes

I pulled up my blinds today, because it's sunny out, and it's really surprising how much brighter and better I feel because of it. I love my little basement microcosm because I have my privacy and my own bathroom and all that, but it's still a BASEMENT and sometimes I don't really realize how dark and tiny it is down here until I open up a window and go 'holy shit it's BRIGHT outside'. It's too cold to really go out and bask in the nice day - bit too much of a breeze - but mmmmm, daylight. =D

I KNOW that I feel effing better in a clean room, so how do I keep letting my space get so dirty. I've got to stop with this shit f-list. Really I do.

Hello. Zippy here.

I... seem to have gone ahead and renamed my journal. ^^;;


HENCEFORTH I SHALL BE glassfishgirl!


Don't worry f-list, I'll always be your Zippy, I just... needed a change.

I'm still sorting and resizing my Con pictures - though there aren't that many - but in the meanwhile an important thought has come up.

I've been on LJ since March of 2005 - for a little over four years now. In the last, well, almost a year I've had the same layout (that is almost perfectly everything I've ever wanted in a layout and oh god I could cry at the thought of how awesome it is...)

But I kind of had theis weird sort of epiphany thing this past weekend at Anime North and then Kitty crystallized the base parts of that epiphany for me with a post she made today...and I feel stupid maybe asking this, I wonder if I would regret it if I change and then hate it and then maybe I can't get the old me back but...

I'm thinking of changing my LJ name.

After more than four fecking years as lady_zip and years MORE even of being called and going by Zippy it feels both terrible and overdue to think of changing. I don't think I will EVER shake Zip and Zippy as nicknames on a person to person level, nor would I want to. I love being known as 'Zip'. It's unique and it's ingrained in me as part of my personality now... but it's also nostalgic and full of past references. I think historical personal meaning is kind of the core and point of a nickname. How someone gets to be called something and having to explain the source of such a title to outsiders is sort of the most basic and beautiful part of a person to person nickname...

But now that nickname is sort of a silly thing, and though I don't mind explaining it in person to people something about the sort of weirdness it came from doesn't fit with my journal now.

Lady Zip is my silly weird fandom thing from a time when I was still very young, tiny in my ambitions and just stupid and carefree. My journal has become so much more about my real life and the shit that goes on in it and what I want to be doing and less and less about my fun ridiculous young years and fantasy things, especially in this last two years.

I still post fanfics and memes and I squee about comics and shows... but I write more and more about my life and what goes on in it and the person I am now is not the Lady Zip I was in 2005. Lady-anything screennames feel silly and childish and sort of make me cringe unless I know the person nowadays. It makes me think of terrible self-insert fanfiction and the sort of STUPID writing I did at that age when I WROTE terrible self-insert fanfiction (which is exactly where my screenname comes from in point of fact.)

People that call me Zippy now KNOW who 'Zip' is separate from the stupid source of that nickname. They met me well after the time when I wrote silly self insert fic and I can tell them to story of how I got the nickname and be like 'hahah, isn't that silly' and have it be that long-past anecdote of how this name got so ingrained.

But I think I want to present a different overall face. I don't want EVERYTHING about me/my online presence to continue to be connected in name to these things that are basically my childhood. I'm twenty three. The magic of those older things has died to me. I'm nostalgic about them, but I no longer want to present them as part of my current self. They are my history, not my newest self.

I know what lj name I would want to change to if I switch just... yeah.

F-list? Thoughts?

So, I'm sure you're all aware that I am very bad about memes.

I love to do them, especially writing challenge ones, but inevitably my muses pitch a fit and I end up leaving people hanging for challenges. I have a few memes I've wanted to do recently but as I am DETERMINED not to do another writing challenge meme until I give a drabble to EVERYONE who posted to my LAST challenge (apologies you guys! huge ones!) I've decided to own the meme I want to write.

terrykun posted this meme: Give me a person or ship and I will write one sentence of ten genres for them. The genres are:
1. Angst, 2. AU, 3. Crack!fic Plot, 4. Crossover Future, 5. First Time, 6. Fluff, 7. Humor, 8. Hurt/Comfort, 9. Smut, 10. UST

But rather than post it up and take requests I may not be able to fill, I'm just going to steal that list and post these themes filled in with one sentence (or more) for characters/pairings I'm interested in writing about personally right at the moment. Because I might as well take my inspiration where I can find it.

I'll post in the comments for my own journal, silly as that sounds, since that makes it easy to categorize what I'm writing about.

First up is Zach/Rose as a special present for Terry though, cause he wrote me Rose/Megan awesomeness. <3

Title: Inheritance
Author: Zippy
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: DC Comics knows I'm not worth suing, right? Right.
Summary: This takes place in the Small Town Lives AU which I borrowed from the awesome merfilly and ilyena_sylph wherein there is Dinah/Slade and piles of win. Posts of the Filly variety gave me granddaddy!Slade ideas that I was then forced to drabble upon. Holy, this was supposed to be brief but it kind of exploded.

( She had a pretty solid punch for a four year old. )

Okay okay, I know. I owe you dudes epic post and some drabbles still, but... this looks like too much fun! XD

PICK ANY RP CHARACTER I HAVE EVER PLAYED and I will ATTEMPT to answer the following questions about him/her/it.

o1. Full name
o2. Best friend
o3. Sexuality
o4. Favorite color
o5. Relationship status
o6. Ideal mate
o7. Turn-ons
o8. Last sexual experience
o9. Favorite food
1o. Crushes
11. Favorite music
12. Biggest fear
13. Biggest fantasy
14. Quirks in bed
15. Bad habits
16. Biggest regret
17. Best kept secrets
18. Last thought (assuming this means last as in 'dying' and not last as in 'recent')
19. Worst sexual/romantic experience
2o. Biggest insecurity

My last post has rundown of everyone I'm RP-ing on LJ comms at the moment, but if there are others that I've rp-ed with you one to one or in other games forever ago feel free to ask for them too, I just might fail horribly on some of the answers if I haven't dusted off that muse in a while.

OKAY! SO!

I have been slowly working on a big-old post I want to make about awesome stuff that has happened recently, but just to give everyone a fast update in the meanwhile here's the cliff's notes of ( Amanda's current status )


SO, NOW IT'S MEME TIME AGAIN! (I stole this from quipquipquip because I just had to. I'm still working on drabbles from my previous post I promise!)

Ask any of the characters I roleplay a question and I'll reply in-character as them with an answer. Feel free to ask them ANYTHING, regardless of whether you know their canon or not. Feel free to also ask them as your own character. They will respond accordingly.

Current Cast:

★ Natasha (Toni) Stark // Iron Woman - Marvel AU (3490)

★ Michael Jonathan Watson - Marvel AU (3490)

★ Brenda Del Vecchio - DC Blue Beetle

★ Joseph Wilson // Jericho - DC Teen Titans (dc_nation AU)

★ M'gann M'orzz // Miss Martian - DC Teen Titans(dc_nation AU)

★ Rose Wilson // Ravager - DC Teen Titans

★ Dr. McNinja - The Adventures of Dr. McNinja

So I stole me a meme!

Comment, and I'll do an insta-drabble ficlet thing, prompted from whatever icon you use.
Or if you don't have an icon for what you want just give me a random prompt. :p

Please be gentle people of the flist. I haven't done one of these in a while for forgive me if I'm slowish. XD

There is a damn spam hack in my e-mail. AGAIN. Please don't open anything random you get from me f-list! I'm sorry! >_

(Blanket spoiler warning! Wheeee!)

So! Continuing the trend from yesterday I pick up on the flailing again while reading Issue 30 of Blue Beetle Boundaries - Pt 2 My favourite - Albuquerque - is illustrating again, although in my opinion this issue isn't really his super-best work. I still have some extreme love for the way he draws La Dama in particular though (when he does them in profile I see the faintest of resemblances between her and Albuquerque's Brenda which is really neat).

Matthew Sturges is writing and things are... notably less hilarious than when Rogers was writing but not in a horrible way. It's a serious plot line that deserves some serious storytelling so I'm really not arguing or saying it's bad, but I miss the really sharp-crack wit of Rogers' dialouge. However, Sturges certainly has his moments. (I did it with SCIENCE!)

Anyway, yes. LAST SIX ISSUES! ( ON TO THE RANDOM PLAY-BY-PLAY OF SQUEE! )